My eyes were tired
I could not think but of one thing
I waited and waited to see you passing by
And to bless the day If I could catch your eyes
I saw you passing by
But your eyes I could not catch
And you do not know what this meant to me....
One Gujarati novelist and politician named Kanaiyalal Maneklal Munshi was an incredible lover too. A fortunate lover. Even after marrying twice in him life he came to contact a married woman Lilavati. Husband of Lilavati was a alcoholic and her son was a gambler. In this situation Lilavati come to contact with Kanaiyalal and fall in love at first site.
And on those days Lilavati have written above mentioned poem and sent it to Munshi . In that book he describe pain of female love, that could be associate with a male lover too. When you love some one very deeply and that person do not response to your love even a little how your heart pain? It describe in words in this poem.
After read this poem Munshi was crying. Tears are part of love, being in love means being in pain.
A poet Jeam Morish has written
“When your heart is on fire
You must realise
Smoke gets in your eyes”
When love fires your heart and you are enough fortunate it will brings in life many beautiful things, but if you unfortunate it will comes to your eyes as tears. In 1932 some rock bands was popular for this kind of songs in them band, people used to listen and dance,sing and cry on them words, because in this world much more unsuccessful stories about love then stories who successful. Some body asked Socretis “Are you happy?” and he replied, if you be in love, how can be you happy. If somebody say that he is happy, Some where in heart he is hiding him or her pain.
Milton ward a poet had write about love and pain a whole book. And the meaning of that book is a simple one. 'God has given us pain for make us fruitful our inner world' But most incredible thing is that when you be in love, one whole industry earn money from it, from your love, from your pain.
Valentine day is a big business now days. They all earn money from your love and pain, books of poetry about love sold number of copies, they make movies about love and those movies run on cinemas hundreds of day and even for years they earn from it. Doctors earn from your love, a tablet called ''Prozec' is an antidepressant tablet and used by people more who got pain in love. In 2002 the company earned millions of dollars from only sale of that tablet and today them earning is 10 times more.
On 24th December 2001, an entertainer is died, Melvine Backheart who used to demonstrate him pain and entertain people how much he pained him self for entertain people like you its a history. Daily Telgraph news paper wrote about this person's death in him news paper in a whole page. People used to think that he is pain proof like a watch being waterproof. He was filling air only in him one lung by trick he created. He was taking off the bone of him shoulder by trick he created, if you take off your bone from your shoulder you will scream that can listen 50 miles from pain of it. But this crazy man was used to show that he have not any pain. He used to show a five Inches long nail pushed in by hammer on him head. But after some time people used to see that pain and he have to create a new show for him. Melvine understood if he want earn he must show more pain to the people. He does not know boxing and he hire a boxer for him show, and asked him to beat him nose as much as he can in show. And that boxer have broken him nose in 22 pieces, after it Melvine said that my nail pushing show is yet to be done, and where a little place in him nose which remain unbroken he pushed in a 5 inches nail there and after lost him consciousness. In Hospital doctor made a surgery and made him nose again in order. Before he died somebody asked him “why you make so much pain to your self?” And he replied “after I lost in love and I had pain, that pain is more greater then this pain which caused by my shows. I used to pain from nails and I can not forget pain from love”
Milton ward also wrote a positive thing about love : “ love is a tremendous catalyst-the motor-power for great creativity.” It means love gives power to those who are in love for carry forward them lives. Love do not come alone, it brings with itself jealousy and logical arguments, it brings also passion and madness. Psychiatrists will die from hunger without pain of love. Madness in love create a great economics power.
Psychoanalyst Dr. Adem philips has written a book named “Big sain”. Literally it mean being wise. But in him book all about madness. In this modern time every where we can see madness of those so called wise people. Dr. Adem says madness and wisdom is two part of one coin but people describe and understand that wisdom is natural and moral and good. But when wisdom get broken and love gives pain, we get depression. Human got broken and broken others. But 100% wise people do not get broken because those people can not love. But they easily broken others. In creative world it calls Creative madness.
Once upon a time before 157 years in Japan. Before the year begin of 1853 an American naval ship came to Japan soil with full of solders. In that ship was an American diplomat also Townsend Herris. Today you can see him pictures at Shimoda city's Folk History Museum. And near him picture there is a picture of a girl who is famous as Japanese Monalisa , a very attractive and beautiful girl. Her name is Okichi. King of Japan on that time sent Okichi to welcome that American ship. And when Herris have seen her, he fall in love with her. At the age of 16 years Okichi got a sea of love from Herris. But an arthodox part of mind of Japanese Okichi could not accept him love certainly. But King of Japan asked Okichi to love him with all her heart for the shake of Japan. After it Okichi begin to love Herris, she has taken care of all about Herris and loved him with all her heart and soul. But time to stay in Japan for that diplomate Herris was came to an end and he must leave Okichi and Japan. In Newyork Herris died. And here Okichi could not marry and love other man. She even said No to many millionaire on that time. And to feed her self she opened a brothel. There was a terms before any one who want to enter that brothel, they must say about pain of them heart and get enter in to the brothel. She did not asked never money to man who come to her in brothel for forget him pain, but she asked to open him wounds and get in to the brothel. Girls in brothel try to give love and calm to those man. Herris after came to Newyork never married or love again to other girl. As a rule of diplomasy he could not marry to Okichi but he remembered her all him life. One pain felt other pain far from thousands of miles.
With destructive childhood, i have learned from life many lessons. I am an average human being living in India.